Love

It was not the scorching heat of the summer which burnt the skin…but more of your absence in my daily life that steamed my heart…..instigated more by your memories and the moments I fancied….A little word of hatred towards you gave me bliss because you responded to it….more than the essays of love….which remained unturned….
But today when the showers of monsoon came down upon the earth….the perturbed feelings became more surfaced …..How I have wondered to walk in this mid–summer dream ….how I have craved to be together with you in all these times and in all these seconds…..The showers coming down….so pure as our love…..so nascent as our relationship...so crystallized as our trust….yet so fragile as our dream…….
Having been stood up there by the window I called the gushes of wind….which touched my face and blew towards you….they made the pain so apparent with the cold slap on my cheeks…..was it the pain of the wide monsoon or a reminder to me that you are not here with me??…..it’s all in my imaginations…all the illusions brought in by me set up the same story to remind me that they are just a spec of thought…too sweet to be true….The more I felt the ice….the more it pained my heart…
I ran up to the terrace hiding myself away….just a glance at the sky above me….yes it is the same sky which shows me your journey back to me……it is so red…just about to pour the hidden anger…but why? Did there lay a mirror….to which my eyes got reflected…red in your dream …and tearful in the pain…but yet no drop could come out because expression was not for all…..and may be not even for myself…..but only for my love….A sudden drop into my eyes…..may be from above or from inside…it didn’t matter….the nature as if could feel the heat in the heart….and burning mind of mine…the water droplet....be it from deep or from the shallow…..laid on my eyes….
No more words...no more of longing..no more of the eclectic pain…and the rain came upon me…..I didn’t know how to cry out loud..but I was feeling fine watching the rhythms of the rain falling..…The whole body seemed to be set at fire…was it a rain or a drop of fire…because romance says raindrops bring in happiness..reduces the burn and depression yet it felt charred…it felt hot….Only a few seconds later I could see ….an image….may be a real or a virtual one….coming towards me….Oh Lord!! Did someone come to know about my pain…was I being explicit about the complications…..Unanswered the shadow moved closer to me….so close that I could hear its heart beat….its breathing and its hand getting pulsed…..
I stepped into it…the pain inside me increased....we both captivated…the shadow and me….suffocation was the feeling…..I could feel the shadow writhing in pain…. My decision of stepping into it left it scared…rain drops on us both couldn’t passify it…. .Seeing it hurt ....the insides of me stirred even more…..It was a shock...a jerk…a blinding effect. I felt hit back and cared hard enough to step back….slowly I could see the shadow coming back to its senses….and my pain reduced too…..what a serene bliss...so helpless…yet so hopeful….I intuitively put forward my hand….towards it..no more clinging onto it….and there was miracle it did it too…..it touched my hand…or did it touch my heart in the process…..the rain to seemed to regain back its beauty…a lonely terrace….with cold strips of rain droplets falling on us….pouring down my face by my cheeks and lips the feet seemed to be wet never as before…..and a shadow beside me much at rest and peace with me holding its hand and vice versa…..no one around….no one to see us or to disturb….the evening was made...and so was my life….the scorching heat and the pain within the body and mind reduced to infinity…
But yet I didn’t know… to whom did the shadow belong… was in mine or yours…because having it interpreted in either of the ways the answer remains so perfect….whether it be yours or mine…..the real me can never step into it ..As you’ve always said….because it pains lot more to be captivated even in shadow…but if my body voluntarily puts my hand forward just to touch the shadow….urs or mine…the shadow would respond too…..Your love has brought in a new life ….a new feeling….a new me….altogether…its not only you and me...its more of a we……together with this beautiful whole world around us….praying for us….blessing us….cheering for us….and making us so complete…!!